I was attracted to more abuse as a young adult.
I had no personal boundaries.
Anger and Abuse. This story shows that being around abuse can create anger, lack of confidence and negative thinking. Anger, lack of confidence and negative thinking can become a part of you. The negative thinking becomes a part of your brain. You fail to learn personal boundaries.
Searching for the missing piece of love continued with more chaos and fear around living with my dad. The ridicule and physical fights between my dad, sister, and stepmom kept me in hypervigilance mode for eight years. I never knew what was going to happen next. My stepmom was mean and cruel to my sister and me. Dad was loyal to her. Part of her cruelty was getting him riled up against us. She would yell “beat them Lale” and he would beat us. He would drink and get in rages. She would drink and run around the house naked and sleep with other men.Continue Reading